Messy post

Hi :)

  First of all, if anyone reads this - I would like to apologise for being so absent and inactive blogging. (Not that I blog a lot, but still...lol). I have been busy in RL, just taking adventage of summer and enjoying life. :) The pictures below were all taken a week or even longer ago and just waiting on my desk top. I figured since I have a free evening and a few cold beers, I could finally share them and do one of the latests Berry's memes too.

 We start with the newest release from COCO...and a new awesome group gift as a bonus! :D

LEFT PIC:
Hair: [LeLutka]-BETH hair/Naturals
Skin: Glam Affair - Lulu 07
Earrings: MG - Earrings - Disco Lover Sparkly Cross (NEW! @ Collabor88)
Piercing: - .HoD. - Scorpios Simplicity Part 2 VIP SET
Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hand Casual
T shirt + scarf: *COCO*_Scarf&Tee_Grey-Black (NEW!)
Pants: *COCO*_CargoPants_Green (NEW!)
Feet: Slink Avatar Enhancement Flat Feet
Sandals: ISON - leather strap sandals (gray) (NEW! @ Collabor88)

RIGHT PIC:
Bikini: *COCO*_Gift_BandeauBikini (NEW!)

 Next we move on to this amazing new Katya skin from Glam Affair - only available in America tone in 6 different make ups @ The Liaison Collaborative Boutique (can't really see it in all it's glory cause I didn't do any close ups yet, but trust me, it's just WOW!  aaaaaaaaand my fav hair from Hair Fair...plus a few more new and older things.

Hair: MINA Hair - Petra - Specials Streaks (NEW! @ Hair Fair)
Skin: -Glam Affair - Katya - America 02 (NEW! @ TLC)
Eyelids: Slink Mesh Lids and Lashes LM
Top: Color.Me.H.O.F Mesh [Puff Sleeve Blouse[Yellow] (NEW! @ Collabor88)
Necklace: MG - Necklace - Disco Lover Sparkly Cross (NEW! @ Collabor88)
Hands: Slink Avatar Enhancement Hand Casual
Skirt: Emery - Mesh Pleated Skirt Charlotte Salmon

 Finally, last but not least...I suck at photoshop, but I like this pic anyway. Just a close up of Toya...aka me. lol...wearing GA Lulu 07 skin (plus lots of add ons and photoshop) and awesome hair from Liquence - which is a new hair store from the owner and designer of Villena. Amazing stuff! I love Villena for lots of things. It always suits my style and it has the most realistic clothing textures in SL. It's all just jaw dropping...and so is the hair. Go, check it out, if you live under a rock and didn't hear about it yet.

Hair:. Liquence . - F1 in Genetics

 Funny thing is, I think I'm tipsy and was just gonna hit the "publish" button and finish the post, but then I realised that I said I was gonna do the meme. Ah crap. More typing...FINE!
The meme that I want to do is The Haunted Meme. This is really my thing, since I'm a huge horror fan and I like to be scared lol...well of course some of my fears have nothing to do with horror flicks. This is why I want to talk about them.

Meme Instructions: What are you afraid of? What are you haunted by? Share some of your fears and if you can, create an image depicting one of them. Don’t forget to leave your link in the comments!

Below is a list of  things that scare me. Please note that my post is rather personal and honest.

1. Darkness.
 I think this is my biggest fear. Why? I don't know. Probably because I can't see "right" and even tho I know that this tall and thin person in a hat isn't a boogeyman but a clothing rack, I still will shake in fear until someone turns the night light on..lol (yes, I still use it sometimes).
2. Cancer.
 I lost my mom a little over a year ago to cancer. It scared me before I lost her, but now it does even more. Sometimes I think that my body's full of cancer. I smoked cigs for 13 years. In 3 days I'll be "celebrating" 3rd month nicotine free, I'm 28 now and I've never tried to quit before so this was my first try and I did it...I'm still shocked I gotta say cause I was a person who loved to smoke and enjoyed it and I "knew" back then that I could never quit...heh, I was so wrong! I have no idea how this happend but from a cig lover I turned into a cig hater. I will not tell you to quit, I will not "hate" on you if you smoke, I will always understand the addiction can be stronger than the will, but I will always hope that you can do it and live smoke free and see how amazing this new life is.
 Daaaamn, I lost the plot. We were doing the meme, not the anti smoking commercial, lol.
3. Losing my sister. 
 My sister and I were always very close. We still are and we hope to be for a few more decades at least, hehe. She's 5 years older and is my best friend and my whole world. She's all I have in rl and I just can't imagine my life without her. <3
4. Zombie apocalypse.
Ok, ok...I know this is very unlikely to happen...but......there's always some chance, right??? No, but seriously...if this ever happens and I get bitten, please DO shoot me! and my sister too. We don't wanna be any more dumb and brainless than we are now. lol.
5. Carrie's mom.
What could be scarier than a fanatic catholic woman?
6. No life after death.
This should probably be higher in "rank" than number 6 but I'm too tired to change it. I've been on this post for nearly 2 hours now.
I'm Catholic but not very religious. I do not know if I believe in God, I think I do...but then I don't really believe in heaven so......I don't think I can believe in God and don't believe in His Kingdom at the same time? I swear, I have no idea how this works...but I just really hope that heaven does exist, cause I want to see my mom again and I'd hate to just "disappear"when I die.
7. Plane crash.
I have spent a lot of time in air planes but the flight was never over 3 hours long. It was always a struggle! I don't think I could ever get into a plane that would fly for 5h/and more. My sister loves to fly and she says that she feels safe and comfortable in a plane. I always find it weird, but she hates to travel in a car with anyone else driving other than herself. She does not trust any other driver, not even her own husband! I guess now I can explain why I'm so scared and why I don't trust the plane pilots. First of all...I don't know them, yet I "give" my life to them for the time of the flight. Another thing is...I have no idea about planes or flying one, so if the pilots were killed or something...who would fly the damn thing??? Next thing is a defect..a defect that causes the plane to crash and no one can do shit about it. Right wing on fire...losing petrol...losing height. Daaaamn, it's just so scary because once you know that plane is gonna crash, all you can do is JUST sit and wait in your seat for death and listen to yourself and 100 other people screaming and crying in panic.
8. Moths.
Yea...I'm not gonna do a 1000 word paper on how I'm scared of these, but I am and I hate them dearly lol.
9. Ghosts. 
Didn't ever see any, but I think I'd shit myself if I did.
10. Growing old alone.
Nothing to add here.